Day 4,361—Sleeping—

 

        I am doing everything I can think of to recover as quickly as possible, but it isn’t easy. As much as I don’t want to, I might need to take a day off tomorrow. I cannot remember being this sick in recent memory. Still, I try to consider the big picture and how I am not having to deal with having surgery on my belly button like I did last year around this time. That whole thing was so insane and stressful. I am so happy I am not dealing with anything like that right now. I slept in until around 11 a.m. this morning. I had woken up several times throughout the night, but just like the time before kids, I kept going back to sleep. I remember those days when there was no urgency to get up. I could just stay in bed and do things on my phone, or sometimes Sarah and I would even watch TV in bed. The day would go by so quickly when I started my day like that. I would still run at some point, but everything was so different.

        When I got up, I wanted to get some pastries with my daughter, but ever since Sweet Art moved to Lindell, I have been much more hesitant to get anything there. Parking on the street is insane, and so far, I haven’t found anywhere to park without a meter, which just seems unreasonable to have to pay to park when you’re going to a place to spend money. Every other place like that, I have found free parking and just walk farther, but not off Lindell, so it is hard to even go over there to see what they have in the bakery. I decided I would go to Strange Donuts instead. My daughter would like that, and it would give me some motivation to leave the house. I called before I went there, and they said they didn’t have the usual vegan donut that they used to carry, so I went to the grocery store instead.

        Lately, it seems like every time I go to the grocery store, I spend 500 dollars. That’s a little exaggeration, but the price of everything has gone up so much in the past 6 months that it is hard to remember what is a good deal or not, and I'm struggling to not be mad at people for voting for someone who is obviously a criminal who only cared about himself, and yet people thought he was going to help the economy?! Now I make less money, and everything costs more, but I am trying hard not to focus on that right now. It was just so clear it was going to happen, but people just thought they knew better. Or they listen to social media people like Joe Rogan instead of people who have worked with the guy running?! It is beyond maddening how willing people are to do the wrong thing if it means they don’t have to admit they're wrong or that they've been manipulated. This is why people stay in unhealthy relationships. 

        Only two months of school, and I am trying to stay optimistic about everything. There is always a lot to be thankful for, and this month I have done more push-ups and had my best trail 100-mile finish in about a year and a half. I still haven’t won a 100-mile race, but I have finished 2nd three times. Now, I need to transition to talk about running today because I am going all over the place.

        I am thankful I could still run for almost 8 miles despite how bad I felt. This run went by quickly, and I was happy to keep a consistent pace and enjoy the weather. Every runner I saw made me think if they were doing their last run before the GO! ST. Louis Marathon. That reminds me, I wonder where the expo is going to be this year. Surely, I will start feeling better soon, and I will feel completely different about many things. More people have been watching my most recent race video, and I am happy about that after feeling so awful about my performance at the Shippey. It was so reassuring to have a better outcome and be able to share that race with the community; there were such good vibes from the people there. I wonder how long those types of small races will exist, but for right now, they’re one of my favorite types of races. This is kind of random, but let me know if you’re interested in doing a push-up challenge with me for April. I will reach my goal of over 5,000 for this month, but I want to keep the momentum going.