Day 3267 —Not Ready—

I should have gotten into counseling or psychology years ago; it has helped me realize what was making me squint, tense up my shoulders, and repeat the same patterns with different people, over and over again—well, no more! 

Okay, probably a little more until I discover the next layer of me.

I think the baby could come today, and I cannot help but recognize the impact that having a child has on you. I don't like playing the comparison game to other versions of myself, but I like the part of me that is a father so much more than I ever thought I would.

I usually think of the idea "when the songs on the radio start making sense, that's when I knew I had experienced love." Being a father was like that; I didn't know what that type of love was before, and now I get to experience it all over again. While it may be scary to think of all the things I don't know, the thought of all the moments, I will have with my new child makes me start to cry.