Day 4,182—Asking for Help—

 

I ran some trails today as opposed to running on streets like I have been doing recently. It is nice to be outside, but I don’t like running in the dark. Maybe I will try to go outside today during my lunch break at work. I should also try to meditate today for at least 10-15 minutes. I like this picture of the pool I took today. I have passed this pool so many times, but I have never noticed it before. 

      

Every time a kid asks me for help, I want to help them, even if it is small, even if I think they can do it themselves. It is different if the same person is asking me for the same kind of help every day, but if it is the first time, I try to help them because I know what it is like to have people ignore you, marginalize your concern, and act like you should have known better; it makes you feel invisible, like no one else sees your problems. In my life, most people don’t seem to think that I need help from anyone. When I ask for help, people act like I am complaining and don’t seem interested in helping me. It is disheartening and reinforces the message that no one cares, which I know isn’t true, but when people consistently treat you like that, it is hard not to take it personally.