Day 4,200—5 Runs until the OT!—

 

       Less than a week left, and it still doesn’t feel real. It was cold/chilly today, and I was at the grocery store yesterday, so I was thinking about buying supplies for the race, but I couldn’t convince my mind that this running was really happening, and it is only a matter of days until the race starts. I hope it isn’t windy like today is. It was cold today, but the kind of cold that wouldn’t be stifled by a light jacket.

        I have started packing in my mind some. I mostly feel adrift and uncertain. As one day keeps turning into the next, I am not left with the feeling that I am moving forward or that I am going in any direction intentionally, but instead feel like an object that is tossed about in the wind and has no ability to consciously move.