Day 4,285—4 Runs until the Shippey 100!—

 

      Yesterday, I started to worry about so many different things. Everything from work to school to my family, and I couldn’t think of a lot of clear solutions. The feeling made me want to take a bath all day with the door closed. I know that wouldn’t fix my problems, but it would make me feel better temporarily and try to deal with something that has been bothering me for a while. I have a new plan for coffee this week. I am going to drink about a cup today and tomorrow, and then half a cup on Wednesday and Thursday. Friday, no coffee would be best, but I might allow myself a tiny amount. It also might be good to go buy some decent decaf coffee because I like drinking it.

        I was wearing my heated gloves today, and they just weren’t working like they’re supposed to. It is possible the batteries already died in one of them, but I don’t want to replace them until the race, so I have fresh batteries in them. But I keep telling myself I will have three pairs of good gloves for the race with plenty of those disposable heat pads. I know in the past that hasn’t been enough, but this year I am not seeing any rain or snow in the forecast, but the temperature prediction keeps dropping, and the wind prediction is no joke, so I am starting to see this image of me being cold on the top of those hills, but I need to stop spiraling and focus. One day at a time, and I need to remember how happy I was doing this impossible race last year when it was cold and icy. I also need to decide now how I am going to be okay with moving more slowly because I do not want to injure myself. I might even use poles for the entire race.