Day 4,383—12 Years of Streak Running Today! —

 

        I cannot say the time has gone by fast. I remember moments that got stuck and seem to stay in one place forever. I can reflect on stretches in the past 12 years that never seemed to move forward. Those moments were when I didn’t like my job and wanted to move somewhere else, do something else, and all I wished for was a way to move my life forward without having to be there for it. Like those miles around 20 when you run a marathon. When suddenly 6 more miles seem like an eternity, and you might as well stop now, or those times between 60 and 70 miles during a 100-mile race. I start thinking I've got a whole marathon a whole 50K left! How is this possible! I have been running for a long time, but in both life and those races, I somehow found a way to keep moving, and then time sped up.

        All of a sudden, it wasn’t just minutes later, it was hours later, or in life years later. Now, I think fondly of those times teaching at Soldan. I remember life being so hard, but I remember all the sleep I was able to get. All the time, I had to do things other than work and chores. Now, I have two little kids who run around laughing and yelling all the time, and somehow they keep getting older, too. My daughter is learning how to read, and my son is learning how to speak in sentences. Every day they learn something new. They keep changing and growing so much. I cannot keep up. They’re already a dozen miles ahead of me, and I am still stuck in time trying to make my way forward. I don’t know what to say or what to do most of the time, but I cannot wait to see what this next year has in store for me.