Day 4,391—the Storm is Over—

 

   I have so much empathy for those who suffered a major loss due to a tornado or a hurricane because there are warnings about this stuff all the time. I bet every time there is an additional warning, they’re triggered, thinking about what happened before. I was in a state of panic yesterday because I was at school when the warning came through, and even though I realized we would most likely be fine, it made me think of what happened last year at this time and how devastating that was, and then, unrelated, my grandmother passed.

        I would love to go to sleep as early as 9 p.m., but I am starting to get ready at 9:30, which is a step in the right direction. I wasn’t groggy, but it took some motivation to do my pushups this morning. I am close to reaching my monthly goal, but I am already thinking about next month's goal. 250 pushups a day is a lot. I don’t know if I can add to that for next month, but I don’t like having the same goal. Part of me wants to step back and do a less ambitious goal, but I will figure it out.

        It was nice that it wasn’t raining this morning, and it wasn’t cold either. I ran, not really sure where I wanted to go, except to Blackburn Park, where I could meditate on a bench. I didn’t want to sit in water, so I figured I could go under a pavilion in the park, which I did. When I got there, I realized I had possibly never before sat under this pavilion, and it was nice. There was a wooden ceiling and concrete pillars supporting it. It didn’t look like it was going anywhere anytime soon. Connected to the pavilion where a couple of rooms that were locked, and one had an AC unit sticking out of the window. It made me wonder who was spending so much time in there that they needed an AC?

        When I ran back through the park toward the trail, I thought of my kids walking up the trail last week. They were so adorable attacking that trail as we headed towards the playground. We will have to do that again soon. My daughter told me last week she wanted to go to Rocketship Park, so we might need to go there instead. I had thought about it so many times how my daughter would like walking on a trail, so seeing her do it for the first time and enjoy it was magical. It was one of those moments I wish I could bottle up forever, so I would always have somewhere to visit that fills me with joy.