Day 4,096—First Week!—

 

         I feel so ambivalent about the Fourth of July. It is the end of summer school, but also the end of the summer. I have four weeks left before I start back, which is more time than I thought I had before I looked at my calendar. I was overwhelmed thinking about work and school this morning, but I got signed up for the test I have to take for counseling, and I registered to take a background test for tomorrow.

         Last Thursday was my last night of class, which reminded me that I need to send that report. Doing the work for this class was like a burden up until it was over, and now I am thinking about the next thing, which seems more important, but that’s to be expected. I cannot believe I am going to be 40 this year. I want to watch the movie “This Is 40” to help give me context.

I wrote this yesterday. They felt like song lyrics that weren’t sung as much as screamed to thumping music that sounded Irish.

There are all these jejune Jesuits. They’re a bunch of pretenders! 

They might know what they want, but I know how to find it!

All these jejune Jesuits: they’re looking for a vendor! 

They might know what they need, but not how to find it!