Day 4,435—Almost the End of the Week and New Updates—

 

Start time: 6:25 a.m.

Weather: Mid 70s, wind 8.1 mi/h, Humidity 90%

I am surprised by how quickly I am recovering. Maybe it is all the sleep I have been getting? It is unusual for me to sleep an average of 7 hours this week, and I cannot say it hasn’t had a positive effect on my body. I have been lazy with my pushups and stretching recently, and I have promised myself that I will add both back to my routine soon.

      I am listening to five different books right now, and I have been trying to pace them so that I will finish them all on the same day. I like this one a lot, that is just letters, and as much as I have never been a huge John Green fan, I am finding that we have a lot in common as I have been listening to a collection of his essays. For example, we both love the song “The Best Ever Death Metal Band in Denton” and the movie Harvey. We’re also both married to women with the same name and grew up in the same general area.

      I was looking forward to seeing the people who have become part of my morning routine today. I saw more people waiting at the bus stop than I usually do. I could smell the perfume of one of the people, and I thought about how certain perfumes can seem so familiar even though it might be brand new. I saw the affectionate older couple waiting at the bus again. The guy with the long white hair and beard was sitting at the bus stop. I saw two women with a small child waiting for the school bus, which of course reminded me of my own small child who would be waiting for the bus when I got home.

Both of my kids ran to me when they saw me approaching them. They all had glasses on, and Felix was in green with his Batman sunglasses, and Vivian was wearing shades of pink with her cute glasses that have sparkles. I know that pick-up and drop-off aren’t everything, but to me, being there for the transitions in my kids' lives seems so important. The reminder that we’re here.

I finished writing the write-up for the MO 100 yesterday! Now, I just have to edit it! I am confident I can publish everything tomorrow, but it will be a crunch: I feel  motivated to finish it. I have still been getting stuck in feeling that the video lacks any meaning, but so does everything when I take that approach. 

Something John Green said resonated with me, just thinking about how we all learn to make meaning out of things that don’t inherently comprise meaning, but we have to find it, create it, make it, so I will keep plotting forward, doing my best to believe in the value of things even when I don’t see it.